Welcome 2 my house :)

I realized I could create a space where I can fully express myself and be real so here we are :P Thank you for reading, it means a lot to me!

Hi, i’m Oni Elize!! (both are single names put together cuz im silly and i believe my name is cute + my nickname) I’ve recently turned 23! I always told myself when i turn 23 i have to start taking my health more seriously, i dont want to be frail and in pain growing old, i shall to work out & eat better starting TODAYYY~

I grew up treating my body like trash because i was never taught how to have a proper relationship with food & most importantly myself. So over time in my adulthood ive been able to begin having good relations with food. It’s a bit of a bumpy road to eating well but my final goal is to be healthy & strong, right now i feel weak and frail ):

These past few years really threw me through a loop and diverted me from the path i choose to follow but in the end it was a learning experience, all that has happened to me i choose to learn from! Yet some of these events shouldn’t have ever happened in the first place but its a bitter lesson taught.

Now at my big age i know i have to try to reign myself back into the path, which is, to find peace and happiness within myself, bring my creativity and love back. To be a ‘good person’, to be helpful, to be kind, to be giving. No matter what has happened they cant take my strength from me, i persevere no matter how many times ive been pushed down i will get up again, whether it takes a few weeks, months or years to heal.. I will always come back stronger each time.

I want to feel life, i want to feel joy. I know it is possible and it is in my reach, i just have to keep putting my best foot forward and trying my best to be my own person and keep my own peace. So im on the way! Every day is a struggle and i try to keep my head afloat, the most important thing ive learned is to give yourself rest. I always believed my value came from how much i can do, produce or achieve. Thats not true, i am valuable because i am alive! Value to who? Cares!

I believe the goal in my life is to find happiness and peace within, to heal and to feel love. If you believe in yourself doors begin to open.